Effie Gleeman
2 min readSep 18, 2021

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If one step forward is to fall to the bottom of a cliff, I will step out.

有些人就是真的頭也不回的離開你,人無法控制他人的意願。但是太過情感化,是好事還是壞事?它可能為你帶來吸引力,同時也會帶走那些吸引力。人性格裡的那些特徵,是否幾乎都帶有雙面屬性?即是如此,一向抱團取暖的人類行經變得有跡可循,太容易理解了。

現實在謊言中停頓,一切都始料未及,為什麼心臟就該被無數子彈所射穿,為什麼你和眼前美景無法相融。

即便是我耳裡的歌分享給你,你也還是不懂我的體會。你我眼前的景色也相差甚遠,我們從來就沒在一個平衡的介面,卻試圖並道駛向同一終點。

太累了,實際連哭都要力氣。人常常就是無法控制自己,我們總會情不自禁。被傷害後變被傳染,傷及無辜也罪有應得。世界的面目是不是就是如此?不是拿著刀就是等待被捅。但這好像不是眾人口中世界的樣子,不是那些組織機構宣傳的樣子。但是,腳下軟軟的,它沒有一塊基石。請問世間存在的缺失性如何用公平角度來衡量?生而為人是一種幸運嗎?不幸感是否也能有跡可循;傷口是否能治癒;如果不再假裝,幸福的感覺會不會消失不見。在人類出生起,我們的人格,自尊,自我變成樹輪裡那道最不起眼的圈,不能忽視也不能控制,你置身於此,也可置身事外。你似乎相關,但也可有可無。你成為了一個人,你深陷這世界的‘圈套’。

Some people just really leave you without looking back and one cannot control the will of others, but is too much emotion a good thing or a bad thing? It can bring attraction to you and also take away that attraction. Are the characteristics of human nature almost all double-sided properties? That is to say, the human behavior that has always been united for warmth has become traceable and too easy to understand.

Reality stops in a lie, everything is unexpected. Why should a heart be pierced by countless bullets? Why can’t you blend in with the beauty in front of you?

Even if the songs in my ears are shared with you, you still don’t understand my sensation. The scenery in front of you and me is also very different, we have never been in a balanced interface but tried to merge to the same end.

So tired that it actually takes strength to even cry. People often just can’t control themselves, we can’t help ourselves. After being hurt it becomes contagious, it hurts the innocent but also deserves it. Is that the true face of the world? Either holding a knife or waiting to be stabbed. But this doesn’t seem to be the way the world is perceived, not the way it is advertised by each organization. But under the foot is soft, it does not have a cornerstone. How can the lack of existence in the world be measured in terms of fairness angle? Is it a blessing to be born as a human being? Can unfortunate circumstances also be traced? Can wounds be healed? Will the feeling of happiness disappear if we stop pretending? From birth, our personality, self-esteem and ego become the most insignificant circle in the wheel of the tree, which cannot be ignored or controlled. You are here, you can also stay out of it. You seem to be relevant, but also dispensable. You have become a person, you are deep in the ‘trap’ of this world.

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Effie Gleeman

🦢 Tally the different traces of life blooming. Chinese cherubs in Sydney.